okay...now is almost 11.30pm...nowadays i just wonder actually to love someone..do we need any criteria? many people will tell others that...what type of boys or girls that they want them to be their bf/gf or husband/wife...? but actually do we need it so much to decide whether to accept the person as our partner or may b more specific....to love them?
ya...i also agree that everyone must have their own criteria, their own level of accepting people...i also did tell my friends that i prefer a guy who is caring, smart, responsible and.....more... but when it comes to a time that i fall in love with someone... there is always a question- why will you love him????? i really cant give an exact answer... as we know...no one is perfect. A lotz of comment and critics that this person not worth or mayb this person not good enough for me to sacrifice...or watever lar... IF i choose to be with him, will anything affects that much to change my mind???? human being normally like to change other people no matter to good or bad... okay..ya..mayb human is like that...or mayb some ppl can say am i think too easy?? this is reality world where every human has unlimited wants.....!!! come on.... love is just a small part of life... of cuz we should choose a better person if we have a chance to choose....
All rite...this topic can't be argue...everyone have their own perception...
Few years back, i am also that kind of person... like to control other people.. like to advice my friends and want them to change to be better... wants everyone to be exactly what I want them to be.... but there was once...my best friend told me.."u know me as who i am, u accept me as who i am...why do u want me to change? moreover we cant change a person in a few days, few weeks or few months...it takes time.. friends should be supporting each other no matter what but not to shoot a person down before he/she did anything wrong? friends is to guide each other not to instruct one another...." After I heard those words.. that was the first time i am stunt and could not giv any answer or feedback... Is true...really true... i know her as her... not to change her to be the person i want... that is not her if i want her to change... And sometimes although our perception is good for them to change... but not neccessary will b a good ending... ya..to be a true friend is not easy.... from that onwards... i never ask my friends to change... i will just stand behind to advice what they did wrong.. human are born to learn... not to follow...
okay...now talking about love... in this century... all girls and boys will have their own criteria on choosing their partner... most of the boys will prefer good looking girls, a nice body shape, intelligent, good appearance and a lot more... most of the girls will prefer smart looking, good body built, protective, intelligent, can afford to spend them and lotz..... ya...pretty realistic... actually very realistic...hehe....but in chinese belief... normally what we want is what we cant get... haha... so u guyz better lower down ur criteria... to me..when the person do not appreciate and will not love us...... then this shows that it is not worth for us to sacrifice more...WORTH cant be refer to those criterias that they able to fulfill.. love a person is actually an unpredictable thing where we will sacrifice anything in order to giv the best to him/her...and is not what we want to get from the person.....
I watched Cinderella 3 few days ago..haha..dun laugh ya.. there is no age limit on watching cartoons.... Anastacia who is one of Cinderella's step sisters...want to married the prince... and her dream is almost fulfill because her mother had stolen the magic wand... and change her to become exactly like Cinderella...but at last... she refused.. this is because... she realise that... she wants a person who love her as who she is... not to love her because she looks exactly like Cinderella... it means the prince does not love her at all... if everyone are there to choose to love a person based on those criteria.... there will always one person who pretend to be perfect in front of the other person.. pretending will not last long.. because it is not an exactly true love... is like a contract...where both parties agree to be the person they want....oh my god...although changes is good... but if we want a person to change immediately, it will either hurt them or hurt both of us... Sometimes things we see are not things we want... although u thought of having him/her is good... but there is thing which u cant see with ur eyes but with ur heart...
Every relationship occurs...there are always two parties..which is "you & me"... no matter how good both people seen by others.. there must be a person who willing to sacrifice more... In my opinion, i can't deny that...criteria may affects our impression on someone...but when u luv someone, will those criteria really bother u??? i also hope that i have a boyfriend or husband who is smart, caring, responsible, able to spend me...and lotz... but...normally the person i love will never have even 2 out of those criterias.... haha.. let me ask u all a question...do all girls outside wants guys that have those criteria that i mention just now??? i think almost all girls want... haha...
When everyone is demanding so much from other ppl...will the person be herself/himself or be the one YOU want them to be...? i think this will makes ppl gone psycho...aikz... in every relationship...is either the person choose to fulfill YOU or to become they ownself...Just try to think...
For those who demand more from ppl... try to ask yourself....how much are you able to giv out before you calculate how much you are going to receive......?
For those who choose to fulfill someone...try to ask yourself... can you get happiness in a pretending relationship??? really...?? if your answer is YES... what i can do is to wish you GOOD LUCK... i can't say you will not get happiness...somehow..this things can't have the exact answer.. if your answer is NO....i think there is time for you to have an open conversation with your partner... there is still chances where both of you can understand each other more...hehe....^_^ GOOD LUCK...!!!!
Friday, November 16, 2007
You VS Myself
Saturday, October 20, 2007
who am i???
Now at 3.03pm in the afternoon...a windy weather..going to rain soon..listening to the soft thunder from quite a distance...just have a sudden feeling to post something....aikz.....still got one week more to settle all my assignments and presentation then my final...i am free for two months holiday...hurray...!!!! but is quite boring...
If i am not mistaken, last week i read my friend's blog saying that..she is changing and trying to be the perfect one in the person's heart whom she care most... suddenly i just wonder....by now...i still din get the answer.....which is......who am i in all of my friends' and family's heart...? i dunno whether i can be the below 50%,? above 50%? or above 80%....?
i know i definitely wont be the best...but i try to be at least at the above 50% level....although i did ask some of my friends what do they feel about me... they din really answer this ques which i am so curious to get the exact answer...
i think both boys and girls friends will definitely giv different answer cuz boys and girls perception are very different....since i was born till now i am almost 19....i alwis try to be optimistic to everything in my life... i always think that...no matter how difficult a situation is...there must be a sollution...is just depends whether do we willing to put in effort to search for it...many ppl intend to blame others to make themselves feel better.. will it last for long? ppl who like to blame others is just they wan to avoid from being responsible to what is happening.....
aikz...past few days...i had a weird dream....dreaming that the person got a gf.....which i feel very real.....my heart can really feel...but is kinda weird feeling.... until today..i still remember the dream...oh my god...should forget it asap....if not it will keeps on ruining my mind...
during this year...i have went through a several quarrel with my close friends....i just wondering how come i can quarrel with my best friends? aikz..sad...anyway...was a past story.....i just want to know...who am i?? in your heart......................
Friday, October 12, 2007
Importance of English..
Letter from Ah Beng to Ah Lian.....
there is some mistake over there...just try to count the wrong words....i think the wrong words is difficult enough for us to understand the letter.....hehe...Let's see.....
Dear Ah Lian
Thanks you for your letter. Wrong time no see you. How everything? For me, I am quiet find. You say in your letter your taukeh soh want you to chain your look? Somemore you must wear kick kok soo, hope you can wok properly.
You know, Ah Kau Kia working in a soft where company now. Last week, he take I, Muthu & few of his friend to May Nonut to eat barger. After that he take we all go to kalah ok. Muthu sing and sing no stop until the sky bright.
Next week, my father mother going to sellerbread 20 years annie wear sari. My father mother going to give a fist to all the kampong people. So you must come with your hole family.
I only hope one day we no need to write and send letter to you and to me. Better I e-meow you, you e-meow me. I will ketchup with you soon. And when you got time, please few free to call me. Goo Bye...........
Worm regard,
Ah Beng
I get this from an email too...so...after u read this...dun u think that...english is very important??!!!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
how to be a filial child??
I was wondering actually how a person be a 100% filial child...? anything that she/he needs to do? to say? in every parents heart...the most precious thing is their children...but will they know that...actually in their childrens' heart they are also the precious thing in their life... it is difficult to stay under one roof moreover in the same family...y do parents like to compare their children with others children? i really hate that so much...yea..i agree that others child studies is much more greater than mine..but so what...isit education can show that they r a filial child? actualy what is in their mind? one more thing is...they oftenly remind us..that they love us very much...and we should be glad that we have them cuz..some of the ppl is even worst..i really agreed with wat they say..but they need not to mention it so often..who loves me & who doesn't..i know it very clearly....there is one time that i really cant stand it that i giv them an answer...." then dun u know that ur children is much more filial compare to others child.." then my mama answered...."yes, i agreed...i know it..." So wat is the point for u to mention it that u r the best parents..i know...n both of u are definiely take a important place in my heart...i luv both of u...really...and i know that both of u love me too...
That's y i alwis agree that...action speak louder than words....this is really true...and i really dun like ppl who alwis done something for me..and alwis remind me... for whom who really understand me..they would not think that...i m a forgetful person and pretend that i dunno wat had happened...moreover they are my parents... to be a filial child...not neccessary must 100% listen to parents cuz parents are not 100% right.... parents is to guide us...not to instruct us... i know...althought there is something happen in these two years.... but i already told both of u that..i wont be the same person as he is... y u still wan to compare me with my brother...? oh god!! dun u think this is a bit unfair to me? i definitely different with my brother...i know it..although i cant 100% promise u that i wont change one day....but as the ONE DAY has never comes... i think it is too earlier for u to judge ur daughter... i am trying my best to be ur good n filial daughter as i can... I LOVE U....MOM & DAD...!!!!!
Sunday, October 07, 2007
10 Secrets for fulfilling relationships!
I read this from an email....is definitely not my writing... is written by someone...but i think quite true.....
1st Secret
The Power of THOUGHT
Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and relationships. Affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about ourselves and others. If we want to love someone, we need to consider their needs and desires.
2nd Secret
The Power of GIVING
If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship, ask not what the other person will be able to give you, but rather what will you be able to give them. The secret formula of a happy, lifelong, loving relationship is to always focus on what you can give instead of what you can take.
3rd Secret
The Power of RESPECT
You cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect ask yourself, "What do I respect about myself?" To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself "What do I respect about them?"
4th Secret
The Power of FRIENDSHIP
To find a true love, you must first find a true friend. Love does not consist of gazing into each other's eyes, but rather looking outward together in the same direction. To love someone completely you must love them for who they are, not what they look like. Friendship is the soil through which love's seeds grom.
5th Secret
The Power of LETTING GO
If you love something, let it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was. Even in a loving relationship, people need their own space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances. Love means letting go of our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions. "Today I let go of all my fears, the past has no power over me- today is the beginning of a new life."
6th Secret
The Power of COMMUNICATION
When we learn to communicate openly and honestly, life changes. To love someone is to communicate with them. Let the people you love know that you love them and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say those three magic words: " I Love You." Never let an opportunity pass to praise someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word - it could be the last time you see them! If you were about to die but could make telephone calls to the people you loved, who would you call, what would you say and.....why are you waiting?
7th Secret
The Power of COMMITMENT
If you want to have love in abundance, you must be committed to it, and that commitment will be reflected in your thoughts and actions. Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to have loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationships. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong one.
8th Secret
The Power of PASSION
Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting passion does not come through physical attraction alone, it comes from deep commitment, enthusiasm, interest and excitement. Passion can be recreated by recreating past experiences when you felt passionate. Spontaneity and surprises produce passion. The essence of love and happiness are the same; all we need to do is to live each day with passion.
9th Secret
The Power of TOUCH
Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down barriers and bonding relationships. Touch changes our physical and emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.
10th Secret
The Power of TRUST
Trust is essential in all loving relationships. Without it, one person becomes suspicious, anxious and fearful and the other person feels trapped and emotionally suffocated. You cannot love someone completely unless you trust them completely. Act as if your relationship with the person you love will never end. One of the ways you can tell whether a person is right for you is to ask yourself, "Do I trust them completely and unreservedly?" If the answer is "no", think carefully before making commitment.
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Secretly in luv 2
This is the second luv story of Cheryl...erm..this time i put the guy name Gary...hehe..actually i dun quite like this name...but just put it...ok..Let's start...
Cheryl met this guy in secondary...she met him when she is in form3...when Cheryl hav to go to new class and get to know new friends too...u know..secondary alwis like to change class every year according to every students exam results... okie..let's get back to the story...so at first when Cheryl met this guy...she dun really know him..and she hav no idea that she will get close to this guy one day...at that time...she only know that her best friend is in luv with him..so in Cheryl's mind there is no luv to this guy at all... moreover at that time there is another girl who is same class with her luv this guy too...haha...Cheryl's best friend also same class too...so at that moment Cheryl really din think of this guy at all..or mayb she still miss Roy...who knows? after knew him for a year...during year end holiday Cheryl's went out with all the classmates and some friends...of cuz that guy is there too..but at that time Cheryl was hav a bit feeling to another guy..not to mention who it is...cuz is not important...during the trip going out...they are having fun...at that time..she only get to know Gary a bit more.. but still treat him as normal friend...okie..that's the end of form3....
when they proceed to form4..she never thought that she would be same class with Gary.. honestly..of cuz he caught her attention abit..cuz Cheryl get to know more about him from her best friend..as i mention earlier...Cheryl's best friend like this guy...but still behind the line of LUV...as time goes by...one day..Cheryl's best friend Ann who like this guy...told her that she already giv up on Gary...so she just listened to Ann...mayb becuz of same class...so Gary and Cheryl get closer...of cuz still friend.. slowly slowly..she start fall in luv with this guy..she hav no idea y she will fall in luv with this guy...not to say very handsome but of cuz a bit attractive looking...and not really tall...not very good in studies...i think is becuz luv is blind...hehe..
After she know she has feeling on him...she did tell Ann.. Ann and Cheryl are friends since primary.. more than 10years friendship of cuz wont b affected by a guy..moreover Ann plan to giv up... so both of them still friend... both of them know they like the guy.. but they never argue becuz of him...really never..both of them know that the guy wont like one of them...secretly in luv really hurt....so...until they finish their form4 and finish their SPM...Ann says that she already giv up..but Cheryl was still like this guy...this time is really different from last time case..this two best friend never quarel becuz of a guy...never cheat each other bcuz of the guy...until one day...when Gary quarel with Ann...Ann was really mad and angry with him.. until Ann ask Cheryl to choose either one of them..it means she wan to choose their friendship or choose the guy who will not like her.... Cheryl was really sad...and angry...y must she choose...? their arguement is none of her business...of cuz she know that Ann was on fire...that's y she say so... so she tell Ann that she wont choose at all..this is the only time they quarel becuz of him...after they finish SPM...Cheryl thought that she will never met Gary again...she knows that she not fall in luv deeply with this guy..i mean not as deep as Roy...Like wat i alwis say...nothing we can predict...one day...Cheryl plan a genting trip for all the classmates..but at last..end up with only three ppl...Elaine, Cheryl and Gary...many ppl will think that will that b anything happen or any chance for Cheryl? too bad...not at all...during the trip...she really enjoy it..she is very happy...but who knows..on the second nite...something said by him which really break her hope and heart...Cheryl know that Gary did know she like him..jus he pretend that he didnt know...he indirectly tell her that he dun like her...after that nite..she decide to giv up..i think this is the end of the second luv story...at last Gary and Cheryl still friends.. and Cheryl is looking forward to her college life...both of them still keep in touch...she really let it go...and treat him as good friend...this time is not that hurt compare to the previous one...so.....is easier for her to let go....
This is the end of the second story...nothing much...mayb becuz Cheryl and Gary hav less memorable moment so is easier for her to forget...
Saturday, July 21, 2007
It has been a long long time...and current time...
kar mun ah...she is my best friend...i know her seen secondary school...we are totally different...we argue alot haha..n not agree alot...i respect her as my best friend although we sometimes mad at each other but i never wanted to give u up...totally never hehe...she help me alot in many thing n also scold me alot..although i dun agree wit her but i m happy to have her telling me wat i did wrong..i do hope our friendship never broke coz i like u to be there in my life to guidance me around n scold me around..heheGUYS!! listen here she is a very good girl so remember to get her oh!!!haha if i got any do wrong please forgive me kar mun, u know i dun mean it at all...hehe best friend always did hope last forever!!!
hi hi kar mun u noe who m i rite?if dunno u can ....loh emm......this gal r is a very ee how to say leh me r her only start so close starting this year loh .this girl u can share secret with her loh because she very keng one she can solve the problem one everytime when we hav problem but u all no need to argue with her one because all the thing she say oso rite one wat we all say is wrong one...hahahaha.......it is becuse she is...........2nd generation karmun u get wat i mean rite ?actually i enjoy being frend with u .......but wat i most enjoy with u is we together go n teng su yen hahahaha........until she lose to two of us ........until here only lah i write 4 u remeber write testi 4 me woh ....take care bye!n attention u all dun ever make her angry because she will.................u all will noe if u make her angry hahaha......
hi my dear kar mun..ever thought i wilwrite u testi again leh..so do i...i m here today is to drop down someprecious frienship that we doesnt knowwhether it wil end or not..for me lovein every frienship wil alway stayalthough everything in the world changehehe..do u still remember the first time wemeet in stardard 1?? do u know on thattime i know that u r a good fren n avery best fren..the joy that u bring to my life,thejokes that never end n the sadness thati wil alway wan to share wit u tell methat our frenship wil always last..hehealthough we never seem to agree in everytopic but i alway stand by ur side as afren..i appreciate all the thing that u donefor me although u never tell me n evenmention about it..u r a great friend that in my life..inever regret that i have u in my life..ucaring,loving n joyness wil always stayforever although i still do not knowwhen our frenship wil end..but i knowour life we have once walk together nthat is enough for me..
hi...just nth to do so here m i to drop u a testi loh ermm tis gal arr i started close wif her since tis 2 years although i noe her very long time adi since primary skoolwhen i get to noe her closer i only realise tat she really a talkative gal o n hav a mature thinkin although u all always c her play here n there....she love to socialize a lot is proven true cause she got so many fren hor around her n she is oso a good listener we 2 use to talk a lot bout wat ruinin in her n my life all the stupid stuff.....we can laugh a lot just for the small matter really enjoy the moment tat we three went out together...chit chat together...ponteng tuition together hor...n 8 togehter oooalthough i noe tat tis is our last year in high skool n we will hav our own life n tat will maybe split out friendship but i alway stand by ur side as afren..u r a great friend that i had in my life..i never regret that be ur fren anyway thx for ur advice n the happiness tat u brought to my lifebuayz
Suk YeePosted 03/09/2004 10:30
hahahaha...................it's me! it's me! kar mun she is a freindly girl, can fren wif every1.i can hear anybody bad news or good news from her.She knows everything de! she veli geng 1 coz she can suddenly laughing in class!"hehehehe..........." tat's d sound she laugh ! hahahahahahaha.........mayb she will kill me after she c d testi, but i'll write it oso..
- pigGy -Posted 10/08/2004 06:49
cia.. know me?? kill u if u dun!! this gal ar.. veru funny!! i got so many nickname for her!! the newest is call her 'mau mau'... wanna know y?? ask her la!! =pa very frienly person... used to be very close with her.. alwiz fight with her also.. but she's very understanding person.. wanna chat bout secrets or disguise ur problem... find her.. haha.. if she free or wanna me aunty 8 then she will 'hirau' u.. if u very the fan then she's scold u till dunno go where liao!! wanna try!!hhaha.. till here la.. type more then i get beat more!! jk only la.. remember to write me testi o!! wish ya all the best!! frienzsss 4eva!!!
suyenPosted 05/03/2006 09:07
hihi,me really long time didnt write u n pt any testi oo...so meh wanna drop by lo...the thinking between u n me really very funny de..mostly think the same way...sometimes i been thinking did u change me or did i change u?? but mostly i can say is i learn alot from u...thanks for the teaching wo..although i dun follow it but that doesnt mean i dun listen from u...haha but wat i been thinking now is if next time i need advice wil u stil be there...? u ah remember one thing ah..u r stronger than i m...u r everthing that i m not..me put a lot of faith on u...if ever feel down remember u still have my number to count on ya....sincerely from,suyen
After reading back those testi..realy feel touch..haha.. guess wat...in the testi...my best friends say that friendship 4ever..do we really can do it? that's y i dun believe the word forever...but i hope it will happen..hehe...in yen's opinion..i alwis the strong one...but do u know? actually i m not that strong as u think...everyone there is a limit...but when u ask me...how much is my limit..i cant answer u...i havent experience it yet...hehe...in college i learn a lot..and i change a lot..i become more talkative than last time in secondary..haha..dunno y...i become more siao n hyper compare to last time...dunno y...by now...i really feel very happy that..
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Guilty in Life
wow...at last i hav settled three assignments...but still got three more to go..two out of three hav to do presentation...aikz..luckily still got one week to relieve stress a bit...damn tired...this month totally no time for my blog....during these few weeks really a lot of things happen...these few weeks..i dunno y..i alwis tell the wrong things..say the wrong things...here i appologize to all my friends..then last week...there is a big war between two of my best friend...this incident really pull my emotion to a very low level...damn down...& emo...i dunno how to talk to both of them to calm them down... at the moment..i jus feel that...i cant do anything... although i know where is the problem..but i cant control the fight between them..i feel that i m quite a useless friend...which cant do anything..look at both of my friend quarel... aikz..hope that time can fade their fight.. okie...overall i quite enjoy my life for now..no luv problem in me...still enjoying my single life...busy with studies...but i really wan to thank my friend...she helps me a lot in assignments...cuz both of us are partner..i really feel guilty..cz like i din do much work...paiseh...hehe...in my life now...friends is very important...but once i realise this...many problems occur in my friendship..aikz..wat to do..i hav to face it...oh ya...these few weeks i really damn piss off with my stupid allergy..whole body red...and itchy...damn irritated...i skip classes becuz of this..aikz..moreover i hav to attend the INTIBALL on the 6th of July...hope i will get well before that day.. there is still a long and hard road for me to walk...although there is personal problem that i dun wan to tell...friends problem...a lot more...but guess wat...i alwis think at the same way...it is...in this big world...there is many ppl who hav even more problems..even more difficulties..or may b they hav problem to keep surviving in this life...so my problem is jus 10% or not even 10% mayb 5% of their pain..and their suffers....so i think my problem is jus a small matter to many ppl..hehe...since we step on this earth..we hav to face the fact that...we will face problems in our life...is a must...without difficulties in our life...no one will learn how to grown up... some ppl will jus open their mouth and shout to eveyone wat's problem is he or she facing...but they will not mention how is he or she going to face the problem... mayb human being is used to b like this... and human being used to b...wont appreciate something or someone when they hav it or him or her around them... when once something or someone missing...then they will know how important the person is...or how they treat that person or things even pets...that's y...the word REGRET exist in the dictionary....human cant avoid from regret...cuz human used to b in regret situation...once u dun appreciate...REGRET is on the way to ur life.... but anyway..i hav to stop here...is almost 12am... i am here to wish everyone who reas this post.... Hope u will understand the word APPRECIATE and prevent the word REGRET to appear in ur life... good luck ya...
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I hav no idea...
let's start my new post...erm...let me think wat should i rite? really dun hav any idea...aikz...
i just read one of my fren'd blog...there is some issue that we cant giv any comment on it...or we cant argue with it...the matter is on both side...for example: money is everything or not...my fren's post that...she should blame about herself for everything...in her case i feel that...she push herself too much at the negative side...like me..although i did mention how i feel or how much pain in my heart in my MSN..i dun mind actually...but is that enough for us to let go all the stress & sadness? i think is more than enough..aikz...shit..dunno wat to write ady...okie stop about this topic...
i just start my degree year one first semester...somehow...i hav a kind of weird feelings...i dunno how to explain...when i enrol that day..i dunno y...i dun really wan to go degree...i worry that i will b choosing the wrong major...but at last i chose major in marketing...most of my close fren alwis say i m quite calm thinking no matter in wat situation..but i dun think i am...anyway...i know i choose the correct major..cuz i really like marketing..hehe.. during the two weeks of holiday...i really did enjoy...cuz i hav let go everything...no worries..nothing at all...until one day my fren told me that...she worried that i m hiding myself from facing the fact...ya...mayb...i agree i still havent let it go... it really takes me some time...is not that easy...aikz...wtf...but i quite happy in my class cuz i hav my siao partner..hehe..both of us will laugh together...really enjoy...hehe...
yesterday i went to sungei wang & timesquare for shopping.. 6 of us went...and we meet one of our fren there..so total is 7...4guys & 3 gurls.. of cuz we hav our walk separately...as we know...we feel weird if guys wait outside the fitting room for us..haha..so 3 of us went our own way...i bouhgt a beg & a pair of slippers.. i din buy much...but enjoy it...hehe..we walk for an hour...but still cant get anything yet...three of us damn upset...but at last..i bought a beg...then..the time begins...hehe...two of them suddenly get to buy so many things...haha...oh ya...about the luv i m having now...i feel happy with it..single life..hav fun... waiting for new one..haha.. finally i really agree that...if u feel suffer on luving someone who doesnt luv u...giv up is the correct decision... if u feel happy on felling in luv with someone who doesnt luv u...i think is okie... cuz..luv which bring happiness oni can last 4ever...
Friday, May 04, 2007
Secretly in luv 1
This is the first story that i write...hehe...get ready..let's start... 
In year 1999, there is a girl name Cheryl studying in primary 5 totally in a new class which she hav to know new frenz..cuz most of the old classmates hav been separated to other classes...in her class there is a quite handsome guy name Roy...when she first met him..she dun really like this guy...cuz she feels that he looks action action abit lar...so Cheryl just close with a few of her old friends.. later..after two months..she get to know more new friends..her class teacher was a malay man..who very fierce..hehe..
ONE day, their class teacher wanted to change all the students seatings.. at that time Cheryl is totally feel a bit weird cuz..worry that the teacher will put her sit with a guy she doesnt know at all...at last the teacher put Cheryl sit with that handsome guy, Roy. Both of them dunno each other..and seldom talk.. after one month..both of them started talk...but still sit quite far.. although they r sitting together..cuz in primary two tables by two tables...
when it comes to the second month they sit together...both of them become closer..sit nearer..play with each other..like others classmates did...both of them quite good with each other...copying each other homework..hehe.. One monday, the teacher gave them a small test... both of them fail together...of cuz hav been punish by the teacher together...the second test...both of them pass...the teacher wondering y both of them fail together & pass together..so the teacher says that both of them looks like husband & wife or mayb couple...at that time Cheryl still havent realise that she already hav feelings to this guy...everyday they will play together..chatting...crapping..haha..many gossip from their friends about their friendship...r they fall in luv ady? r they just friends? there is so many ques around them...but they din say anything...din giv any answer...when Cheryl realise she fell in luv on him, is already the end of the year...they hav to shift class...both of them shifted to different class in primary 6...but still quite good fren...
There is too many rumors about them until Cheryl feel shy to face Roy...as she know...Roy did know she like him...but both of them pretending their nothing....in this ways...Cheryl know that Roy did not hav the same feeling on her...their primary 6 is jus a very normal student life...a best fren of Cheryl name Vanessa b the middle person of Roy & Cheryl..cuz Cheryl dun really dare to talk to him...when primary 6 year end...both of them went to the secondary..same secondary...here..their friendship did getting far... they seldom talk...cuz in different class...hav their own new frens... Cheryl still secretly in luv with this guy... luving a person secretly is really not a good thing...cuz will b quite suffer of it...
When one day...Cheryl call her best fren...she found out that Roy is at her fren's house...at nite...so she feel something... the next day...she went to ask her best fren whether is she going out with Roy? (dating) Vanessa answered "NO". As her best fren, Vanessa should know that Cheryl hate ppl cheating on her...moreover she already ask the ques & bring up this matter...Cheryl hav a deep cut in her heart...she feels very hurt...although she very angry with her...but after a few days...she jus pretending..nothing happen...she still treat Vanessa as her fren...cuz Cheryl actually is a very short-temper person...dunno whether is good or bad...Cheryl feel very disappointed..but still hav to face her... how can she know isit true? actually is very obvious as every of their friends also know about it... Cheryl feels that, 'how can she telling such lie? as most of the ppl already know...' although she knows she had no hope from that guy...she still appreciate every moment that they spent...There is one day...where Roy hav been bitten up by some gangster...Cheryl was so worry...but she cant do anything...she saw Roy's face injured...she jus asked, " r u ok?" ...just so simple....around sept 2000...almost the end of their form 1...both of them get close together again...but is just fren...not even good fren..jus friend...everyweek they will talk through phone...Roy close with Cheryl cuz...he wants to know more about Vanessa...still got a bit friends talk lar... although Cheryl feels hurt...but she very appreciate it...she din tell Roy...that she like him...jus pretending...she did teach him how to get Vanessa's heart...she help them to get together... is it she too generous...? Cheryl dun wan to fight with her friend becuz of a guy who doesnt luv him b4...so she plan to giv up...words is easier than action...but action is more powerful than words... when Cheryl get to know that Roy is going to shift to other school...of cuz she will feel sad...but on the other hand...she feels better for not seeing him..is easier for her to giv up...Roy was the first person who she luv...after one year...Cheryl's heart still missing him...no other guys appear in her eyes...except him...One day in the afternoon...she was in her grandpa's car..pass by a bus stop..she saw Roy... he also saw her..at that time..both of them din say HI....din smile with each other...just hav a stranger feelings... Cheryl!!!! is time to wake up...said by herself... from that day onwards...the wound in her heart begin to recover...and Roy has been keeping in her history book(own diary or heart).. at last she had succeed...giving up on him...letting out herself from the stupid hole...haha..ya...luv is blind...so actually is a bit stupid...although Cheryl luv Roy...but she never cry once becuz of him...she, herself also dunno y...mayb she feels that in this world there is not only luv which involve in our life....especialy is not worth it... for a person who din even luv her b4...
end of PART 1...the first luv story ended..in Cheryl's life...
Roses
Red roses 
White roses
Pink roses
Yellow roses
In the Victorian times, yellow roses meant jealousy, but today they signify friendship, joy, gladness & freedom, the promise of a new beginning - send yellow roses to congratulate your friends & loved ones during joyous occasions.
Orange roses
Expressing desire & passion, pure enthusiasm & fascination - an excellent choice for a new relationship that you wish to pursue further. It can nevertheless also be referring to a new business partnership.
Love at first sight & enchantment - send lavender roses of course to convey the message of your " love at first sight" with that special someone. You can nevertheless also send them if you would like to makea special impression.
THE NUMBERS OF ROSES
1 rose - Love at first sight, you are the one
2 roses - Mutual love between both, deeply in love with one another
3 roses - I love you
6 roses - I wanna be yours
7 roses - I'm infatuated with you
9 roses - An eternal love, together as long as we live
10 roses - You are perfect
11 roses - You are my treasured one, the one I love most in my life
12 roses - Be my steady
13 roses - Secret admirer
15 roses - I am truly sorry, please forgive me
20 roses - Believe me, I am sincere towards you
21 roses - I am devoted to you
24 roses - Can't stop thinking of you, 24 hours everyday
33 roses - Saying " I love you" with great affection
36 roses - I will remember our romantic moments
40 roses - My love for you is genuine
50 roses - Regretless love, this is
99 roses - I will love you for as long as i live
100 roses - Harmoniously together in a century, remaining devoted as couple till ripe-old age
101 roses - You are my one & only one
108 roses - Please marry me!'
365 roses - Can't stop thinking of you, each & everyday
999 roses - Everlasting & eternal love
