I hav no idea...

let's start my new post...erm...let me think wat should i rite? really dun hav any idea...aikz...
i just read one of my fren'd blog...there is some issue that we cant giv any comment on it...or we cant argue with it...the matter is on both side...for example: money is everything or not...my fren's post that...she should blame about herself for everything...in her case i feel that...she push herself too much at the negative side...like me..although i did mention how i feel or how much pain in my heart in my MSN..i dun mind actually...but is that enough for us to let go all the stress & sadness? i think is more than enough..aikz...shit..dunno wat to write ady...okie stop about this topic...

i just start my degree year one first semester...somehow...i hav a kind of weird feelings...i dunno how to explain...when i enrol that day..i dunno y...i dun really wan to go degree...i worry that i will b choosing the wrong major...but at last i chose major in marketing...most of my close fren alwis say i m quite calm thinking no matter in wat situation..but i dun think i am...anyway...i know i choose the correct major..cuz i really like marketing..hehe.. during the two weeks of holiday...i really did enjoy...cuz i hav let go everything...no worries..nothing at all...until one day my fren told me that...she worried that i m hiding myself from facing the fact...ya...mayb...i agree i still havent let it go... it really takes me some time...is not that easy...aikz...wtf...but i quite happy in my class cuz i hav my siao partner..hehe..both of us will laugh together...really enjoy...hehe...

yesterday i went to sungei wang & timesquare for shopping.. 6 of us went...and we meet one of our fren there..so total is 7...4guys & 3 gurls.. of cuz we hav our walk separately...as we know...we feel weird if guys wait outside the fitting room for us..haha..so 3 of us went our own way...i bouhgt a beg & a pair of slippers.. i din buy much...but enjoy it...hehe..we walk for an hour...but still cant get anything yet...three of us damn upset...but at last..i bought a beg...then..the time begins...hehe...two of them suddenly get to buy so many things...haha...oh ya...about the luv i m having now...i feel happy with it..single life..hav fun... waiting for new one..haha.. finally i really agree that...if u feel suffer on luving someone who doesnt luv u...giv up is the correct decision... if u feel happy on felling in luv with someone who doesnt luv u...i think is okie... cuz..luv which bring happiness oni can last 4ever...

Secretly in luv 1

This is the first story that i write...hehe...get ready..let's start...


In year 1999, there is a girl name Cheryl studying in primary 5 totally in a new class which she hav to know new frenz..cuz most of the old classmates hav been separated to other classes...in her class there is a quite handsome guy name Roy...when she first met him..she dun really like this guy...cuz she feels that he looks action action abit lar...so Cheryl just close with a few of her old friends.. later..after two months..she get to know more new friends..her class teacher was a malay man..who very fierce..hehe..
ONE day, their class teacher wanted to change all the students seatings.. at that time Cheryl is totally feel a bit weird cuz..worry that the teacher will put her sit with a guy she doesnt know at all...at last the teacher put Cheryl sit with that handsome guy, Roy. Both of them dunno each other..and seldom talk.. after one month..both of them started talk...but still sit quite far.. although they r sitting together..cuz in primary two tables by two tables...
when it comes to the second month they sit together...both of them become closer..sit nearer..play with each other..like others classmates did...both of them quite good with each other...copying each other homework..hehe.. One monday, the teacher gave them a small test... both of them fail together...of cuz hav been punish by the teacher together...the second test...both of them pass...the teacher wondering y both of them fail together & pass together..so the teacher says that both of them looks like husband & wife or mayb couple...at that time Cheryl still havent realise that she already hav feelings to this guy...everyday they will play together..chatting...crapping..haha..many gossip from their friends about their friendship...r they fall in luv ady? r they just friends? there is so many ques around them...but they din say anything...din giv any answer...when Cheryl realise she fell in luv on him, is already the end of the year...they hav to shift class...both of them shifted to different class in primary 6...but still quite good fren...
There is too many rumors about them until Cheryl feel shy to face Roy...as she know...Roy did know she like him...but both of them pretending their nothing....in this ways...Cheryl know that Roy did not hav the same feeling on her...their primary 6 is jus a very normal student life...a best fren of Cheryl name Vanessa b the middle person of Roy & Cheryl..cuz Cheryl dun really dare to talk to him...when primary 6 year end...both of them went to the secondary..same secondary...here..their friendship did getting far... they seldom talk...cuz in different class...hav their own new frens... Cheryl still secretly in luv with this guy... luving a person secretly is really not a good thing...cuz will b quite suffer of it...
When one day...Cheryl call her best fren...she found out that Roy is at her fren's house...at nite...so she feel something... the next day...she went to ask her best fren whether is she going out with Roy? (dating) Vanessa answered "NO". As her best fren, Vanessa should know that Cheryl hate ppl cheating on her...moreover she already ask the ques & bring up this matter...Cheryl hav a deep cut in her heart...she feels very hurt...although she very angry with her...but after a few days...she jus pretending..nothing happen...she still treat Vanessa as her fren...cuz Cheryl actually is a very short-temper person...dunno whether is good or bad...Cheryl feel very disappointed..but still hav to face her... how can she know isit true? actually is very obvious as every of their friends also know about it... Cheryl feels that, 'how can she telling such lie? as most of the ppl already know...' although she knows she had no hope from that guy...she still appreciate every moment that they spent...There is one day...where Roy hav been bitten up by some gangster...Cheryl was so worry...but she cant do anything...she saw Roy's face injured...she jus asked, " r u ok?" ...just so simple....around sept 2000...almost the end of their form 1...both of them get close together again...but is just fren...not even good fren..jus friend...everyweek they will talk through phone...Roy close with Cheryl cuz...he wants to know more about Vanessa...still got a bit friends talk lar... although Cheryl feels hurt...but she very appreciate it...she din tell Roy...that she like him...jus pretending...she did teach him how to get Vanessa's heart...she help them to get together... is it she too generous...? Cheryl dun wan to fight with her friend becuz of a guy who doesnt luv him b4...so she plan to giv up...words is easier than action...but action is more powerful than words... when Cheryl get to know that Roy is going to shift to other school...of cuz she will feel sad...but on the other hand...she feels better for not seeing him..is easier for her to giv up...Roy was the first person who she luv...after one year...Cheryl's heart still missing him...no other guys appear in her eyes...except him...One day in the afternoon...she was in her grandpa's car..pass by a bus stop..she saw Roy... he also saw her..at that time..both of them din say HI....din smile with each other...just hav a stranger feelings... Cheryl!!!! is time to wake up...said by herself... from that day onwards...the wound in her heart begin to recover...and Roy has been keeping in her history book(own diary or heart).. at last she had succeed...giving up on him...letting out herself from the stupid hole...haha..ya...luv is blind...so actually is a bit stupid...although Cheryl luv Roy...but she never cry once becuz of him...she, herself also dunno y...mayb she feels that in this world there is not only luv which involve in our life....especialy is not worth it... for a person who din even luv her b4...

end of PART 1...the first luv story ended..in Cheryl's life...

Roses

Roses actually bring a lot of meanings...there are many colours of roses.. the amount of roses also brings different meanings.. many ppl thought that roses only meant for lover...but actually is not..roses also did meant for friendship, and other special events...

THE MEANING

Red roses

It brings out the symbolism of love & passion, as well as respect, admiration & beauty. Send red roses to express your love for that someone, by saying " I love you ".

Black roses

Signifying a deeper feeling of romance, love & passion, and also a sense of mystery.

White roses

The white roses is known for its feelings of not only love, but true love & reverence, white rose also means the bridal rose, " You are heavenly", "I am worthy of you" - normally used as traditional bridal bouquet during weddings to symbolize a happy love.

Pink roses

A symbol of admiration, elegance & refinement - send deep pink roses to show your appreciation & gratitude, saying " Thank You" - send light pink roses to show admiration & sympathy.

Yellow roses
In the Victorian times, yellow roses meant jealousy, but today they signify friendship, joy, gladness & freedom, the promise of a new beginning - send yellow roses to congratulate your friends & loved ones during joyous occasions.

Lilac roses

One of the uncommon rose colours, the enchanting lilac rose is a symbol of respect.

Orange roses
Expressing desire & passion, pure enthusiasm & fascination - an excellent choice for a new relationship that you wish to pursue further. It can nevertheless also be referring to a new business partnership.

Coral roses

Another uncommon colour, coral roses are a sign of happiness & can also be used to express desire.

Cream roses

An expression of caring, cream roses are a popular way of letting someone know they're in your thoughts.

Mauve roses

It indicates a sense of passion, & even erotical.

Blue roses

Not a naturally occuring colour, dyed blue roses signify a sense of impossibility & fantasy.

Lavender roses
Love at first sight & enchantment - send lavender roses of course to convey the message of your " love at first sight" with that special someone. You can nevertheless also send them if you would like to makea special impression.

THE NUMBERS OF ROSES
1 rose - Love at first sight, you are the one
2 roses - Mutual love between both, deeply in love with one another
3 roses - I love you
6 roses - I wanna be yours
7 roses - I'm infatuated with you
9 roses - An eternal love, together as long as we live
10 roses - You are perfect
11 roses - You are my treasured one, the one I love most in my life
12 roses - Be my steady
13 roses - Secret admirer
15 roses - I am truly sorry, please forgive me
20 roses - Believe me, I am sincere towards you
21 roses - I am devoted to you
24 roses - Can't stop thinking of you, 24 hours everyday
33 roses - Saying " I love you" with great affection
36 roses - I will remember our romantic moments
40 roses - My love for you is genuine
50 roses - Regretless love, this is
99 roses - I will love you for as long as i live
100 roses - Harmoniously together in a century, remaining devoted as couple till ripe-old age
101 roses - You are my one & only one
108 roses - Please marry me!'
365 roses - Can't stop thinking of you, each & everyday
999 roses - Everlasting & eternal love